Sunday... An amazing feeling!

So today I got up a little later so that I could get some more sleep. Once I got up I called the nurse to see how Ethan had done through the night. She told me that he had done really good and that they put him on the cpap this morning! Yeah a step forward!

Mark's supervisor and his wife stopped in to say hi to Ethan and I. His supervisor was a HUGE part in saving Ethan's life. He was the one that said to do what we needed to do the night it all happened. It may have went against a few policies but he put family first and made the call. We are forever greatful for his reaction to the situation. I don't know how I could ever repay him! They also brought us a gift with sleepers, preemie diapers, wrist rattles, and matching booties and mittens.

Mark had his first day back at work today. This will be the first full day that he will not be at the hospital with Ethan ;( I told Mark before I went to the hospital that I have a feeling they will say that I could hold him tonight and if they do I think I am going to say no. Mark of course said "WHY?!?!?" I told him that I wanted him to be there for the first time that we got to hold him, I wanted him there to help take pictures, and if anything did happen while we got to hold him I would want him there for support. He told me that he could try to come up tonight. But I told him that I really wanted him to but it would be best if he stayed at home to remove the carpet. Tomorrow we are having carpet installed (including the nursery) and we have been on the waiting list for the past 2 months to get it installed so we didn't want to push it back anymore. So of course when I got to the hospital they told me that as long as Ethan does good through out the day that I would be able to hold him at his 8:30pm cares. I told her what I felt and she pointed out to me that we would not be able to pass him back and forth so that I would be able to hold him tonight and then Mark would be able to hold him tomorrow night. I told her I would think about it.

So of course I really didn't want to wait any longer to hold my little boy. I thought well if I hold him tonight that means Mark can hold him tomorrow night possibly if everything goes well. So 8:30 came around and I started to get all teary eyed (since you know I am not teary eyed throughtout the day!) So of course Ethan was still hooked up to all the machines but they moved the rocker next to his incubator and extended the cords so that I could hold him. I held him skin to skin so that I could keep him warm and he gets a sense of his mama. When they passed him to me I have to admit I was scared. He is so absolutely tiney I didn't want to hurt him! I didn't know how to hold such a little thing. But of course the nurses were there to help me. It was such an amazing feeling to finaly hold our little boy! He is sweet and so precious! His stats were really good (meaning all the numbers on the monitor) when I was holding him. But right as we were putting him back into the incubator his heart beat dropped! Ugh! So of course the nurse was rubbing his back vigorously until it came back up but then it stayed there... at least until I left for the night.

These pictures were taken by the nurse....

Now I took a taxi to the apartment as I am still unable to drive. Yeah a little scary! The dude had long hair and no teeth. He started asking me if I read the news lately. I said "no why?" He said well I was wondering if you heard about the brother and sister that stabbed each other. I said "oh no what happened?" He said well it was my son and daughter and they got drunk off black velvet and decided to stab each other. So they ended up with stitches, in jail and felony charges. Yeah ok... what cab company did I call? Yep not calling that one again!